"REGRETS YES.....NO DOUBTS THOUGH".....November 4th, 2013:

        November 4th, 1979 is a day forever etched into my mind. I sat at the side of my father's hospital bed and watched as the bleeps on the heart rate monitor came slower and slower...and then stopped. That day and the immediate days after were a blur to me and I really can't remember much of them.  I weighed fifty pounds less on November 4th, 1979 then I do sitting here on my recliner writing this post. I was a runner back then but my Jim Fixx... Runner's Day-by-Day Log and Calendar shows nothing from those days other than miles ran, weight and occasional comments on the weather or the run.
        I did volunteer phone work in the Pennsylvania primary for Ted Kennedy's run for the presidency in the 1980 campaign. I had been a supporter, a fan is probably a better word, of the Kennedy family for as long as I can remember and can recall being whisked out of our grade school classroom to line the street and wave as then presidential candidate John Kennedy's motorcade drove by on his visit to Buffalo. Robert Kennedy's death affected me greatly....and Ted Kennedy....well it was just natural to support his campaign for President. My father is buried in Arlington Cemetery a few hundred yards away from the graves of these three brothers.
         I wouldn't find out until days later that Ted Kennedy's campaign for president began to collapse the very day that my father died as the Senator from Massachusetts sat for a disastrous interview with CBS newsman Roger Mudd. This was three days before his run for the White House was even officially announced. Senator Kennedy was asked the simple question "Why do you want to be president?" Had I been watching this interview live my head would have sunk into my hands as the Massachusetts Senator stammered his way through a vacuous answer that gave doubt to all those watching of his qualifications to be president. There was a long way to go in that campaign but Kennedy never recovered from that infamous interview on November 4th, 1979..
         It was another news story that dominated on that day in 1979 and I did at least catch those headlines but no one could foresee the earth shaking reverberations the event would have over the coming years right up until today. President Jimmy Carter had effectively turned his back on the Shah of Iran who was in the United States for medical treatment. Iranian students who were supporting a revolution in their country seized 52 American hostages from the American embassy in Tehran. This hostage crisis would last 444 days and not be resolved until the very day that Ronald Reagan took the oath of office as Jimmy Carter's successor. It has been 35 years (38 now) since that day and Iran is now a threat to Israel, to the United States and to world peace.
         Six weeks after my father died I started a new job, the same job that I returned home from just a few hours ago. (and the same job I retired from a year ago) Within the next three years I went  from being a lifelong Democrat volunteering in political campaigns to an ardent conservative Republican. I went from wearing a suit to work to wearing a hardhat and steel-toe boots, and I went from being a rather non-religious occasional church goer to a cross pin in the hat...Bible in the back pocket... born-again Christian. My great regret is that I had, and thus have today, no idea if my father had considered his eternal soul in his last days. This I don't know for I had no clue as to my own eternal soul at the time.
         November 4th always brings back these memories, sometimes a tear or two, and thoughts about my life before redemption....by grace alone...through faith alone.....in Christ alone. I did come across a comment that I made in my Jim Fixx running logs that helps explain those days a little bit. It was on March 5th, 1982...."Saw Chariots Of Fire today." The comment was out of place among years (nine years total) of only running comments. The fortitude and determination of Eric Liddell, as depicted in the film, made me question my own life....I remember that.... and I would find answers to those questions before the end of the year.
          There is a scene in that Academy Award winning film where Eric Liddell is asked if he regretted not running his Olympic race that was scheduled on the Sabbath. His answer was...as well as I remember it....."Regrets yes....no doubts though." It was an answer that begs for some further explanation which I cannot give other than to say that I also have many regrets in my Christian walk.....but also.....no doubts.......no doubts on the Lord Jesus Christ, on His majesty, His mercy, His kingship, on the infallible Word given to us in the Bible, and on His resurrection, ascension and Second Coming in power and glory along with all the saints that have passed on...including Eric Liddell.